Contradicting

Today i contradicted everything i said. I told myself that i couldn't take it anymore, and look where i am now.I guess You could say that I'm back to where I started. I guess I never seem to learn from my mistakes. I always tell myself not to do something, and later on I end up doing it all over again. Sometimes i wish i could just stop, this only leads to disappointing the people i appreciate the most, and most of all i end up hurting myself by giving up when i know i can do better. I told myself that i wouldn't let anyone influence me anymore, but now i think I've let people choose for me and tell what's bad and what's the best for me, and at the end..of course.. i end up regretting it all. I really hope this year of High School ends up fast, so i can start a new life. A new life with new people, new goals, and accomplishments. I need to start fresh again. Set new standards and not only please the people around me, but please myself also.