It was for the best..?

Since the day that you've been gone, nothing has been the same. Everything i do, somehow, it reminds me of you. Every time i check my phone, i wish that it was you. I wonder if you're doing okay, are you taking care of yourself?I wanna know if you miss me as much as i miss you. Some times i wish i could turn back in time and go back to way we used to be, But i gave it some time and i finally realized that i just couldn't go on this way. We fought most of the time, you made me an option, when i made you my priority. i was constantly unhappy everyday. I reached my ending point. So i told you that it was time to move on, i picked up the broken pieces and tried to be strong. I was tired of the lies, the misunderstandings, and the broken promises. I hope what i did was for the best, letting go isn't as easy as i thought it would be. Now that you're not here, i keep myself busy in order to stop thinking about you. i guess you weren't really worth it, if i decided to let go of you. i thought that you were the one that could actually make me feel like i'm important, like i'm actually worth something, but i guess i was wrong. I don't wanna say that you're a bad person, because you're not. You showed me that you cared and you actually thought me how to look at life in a different way. I guess now i have to live a life without you in it. It hurts to not have you here anymore,but too late for apologies. i just want to look back at this and know that i did the wrong things for the right reasons. That i let go of someone wonderful, but gained someone amazing.

i hate snoww!

let me tell you something... I HATE SNOW!! i hate it! i hate it! i HATE it! it only makes everything worse! i hate going outside in the morning because is soo damn cold! and i hate being stuck at home because i'm still sick! and since it's cold outside i can't go out! ughhhh! but other then that.. school was pretty good today. it was pretty relaxed except for a few misunderstandings, but nothing i can't handle. i hope winter break comes really fast. i'm ready for christmas! and new years! hmmm! lots of fun stuff! :D

well buh-bye for now.<3

SICKKK! >.<

Today, I am SICK! ughh! i hate being sick! but missing school is the fun part! haha. but I want to go to the dance showcase! so i can go and support my cousin and my other friends. This is why being sick sucks! you missed out on pretty much everything that goes on with your friends. i wish i can get better so i can go. i don't want to disappoint anyone. ughh! well off to bed! i'll write some more later! buh-bye! (:

Contradicting

Today i contradicted everything i said. I told myself that i couldn't take it anymore, and look where i am now.I guess You could say that I'm back to where I started. I guess I never seem to learn from my mistakes. I always tell myself not to do something, and later on I end up doing it all over again. Sometimes i wish i could just stop, this only leads to disappointing the people i appreciate the most, and most of all i end up hurting myself by giving up when i know i can do better. I told myself that i wouldn't let anyone influence me anymore, but now i think I've let people choose for me and tell what's bad and what's the best for me, and at the end..of course.. i end up regretting it all. I really hope this year of High School ends up fast, so i can start a new life. A new life with new people, new goals, and accomplishments. I need to start fresh again. Set new standards and not only please the people around me, but please myself also.