New Blog! finally!

So i know i haven't been here in a loooong time, but it's just that i don't know what to really write
on here! it's hard for me to find the right words that actually describe how i'm feeling. So many things have happened.. good and bad and honestly i don't even know where to begin! So i
decided to turn this into a JOURNAL aka. Diary! here i'll tell you how my days go. So feel free
to stalk all you want! haha. Well let's get started shall we? ;]


NOVEMBER 29th, 2009
-Today you could say that i finally opened my eyes. I realized that I've been getting less then what i actually deserve, that no matter how much I make you my priority, to you I'm just an option. I guess today i finally reached my ending point. I'm tired of always getting my hopes up and being screwed over at the end. i guess i should have known better, and i guess i was foolish for believing in everything you said. i shouldn't had given second chances when i knew it was going to end up like this. Nothing is like it used to be, and i admit that i wish things were back to the way they were, but if you're not willing, then there's no hope. The lies, the waiting, the broken promises, and more.. are the reasons why today I'm letting go. I am aware that letting go is not easy, it will hurt and that it will take time to actually let go of everything we've been through, but i rather go through all this, than lying to myself saying everything will be okay when i know it wont. I remember that once you promised me that if i ever fall for you..that you were going to catch me. Well I've fallen and I've fallen head over heels for you, but all I've gotten from you are excuses and apologies for not not being there. I'm tired of you saying the right things at the wrong time. I'm fed up with everything that has to do with you. i want to forget the day i even met you. I am seriously done this time. So this is my good-bye. I wish you the best, that's all i can do for you.