My life in after high School.

So today i was talking with a friend about our lives after high school.
And it made me realize that i've been wasting my time.
I've been wasting my time worrying about stupid little things instead of
focusing on what is really important.
I thought that i had everything planned out,
but now that i think about it.. i don't know what to do anymore.
All my life i wanted to be successful in life, but now-a-days i think
that i'm failing rather then succeeding. I've let people influence the way i live.
I've put others before me and I've accepted way less then i deserve.
I've tried to please others and tried to meet their expectations rather than
putting myself first and thinking what's actually good for me.
and where that has gotten me? NOWHERE.
I've been disappointing my parents and that has cause them to expect less from me.
I want to make somehting out of myself. i want to have a stable job, and earn enough money
to lifve a descent life.
But so far I've done nothing to meet this expectations.

So I've decided to stop playing around and get serious.
This is my last year of high school and I'm not gonna let anyone ruin it.
I think I've had enough. And like my friend TJ says I NEED TO PUT MY HEAD IN THE GAME!
I want my parents to expect more then a bad grade from school and to actually
be proud about me for once.
I'm still not sure of what I'm going to study after high school but what i DO know is that..
I want to finish high school with a diploma on my hands.

Well it was telling you guys all this! lol
have a good dayyyyyy! :D
bye bye! <33